The following interview was conducted by The Free Edition Magazine in Partnership with Alien Amp Records
My journey has always revolved around music, any major event which has taken place in my life, or any obstacles which I had to overcome, music has been my outlet and lifesaver. I was born with a rare condition Dorfman Chanarin Syndrome which affects my skin, muscles, nerves, and liver. I have always looked physically different and have had to live most of my life in pain, never really knowing how each day is going to pan out. I don’t like highlighting much about my health condition but my aim as a musician is to portray a message, a message which says that we are all born to do what we want! Emphasizing the importance of kindness and that we all have the ability, to be happy. Growing up I suffered from bullying, not really fitting in, and finding a sense of belonging! The only thing that ever got me through everything was music. I had spent most of my high school years at home due to ill health and bullying.
Physically and mentally, this was a real challenge. Millions of people go through this at any stage in their life, whether it be young or old, and it’s always a mental and physical struggle. I started to learn piano when I was 8 years old and that was my place of zen. Playing piano was a great emotional and musical outlet. As I got older, I started to gain interest in the music production field and wanted to learn how to sing. So as the years went by, I started to learn about music production and taught myself how to sing… I could not sing to save my life! My parents bought me a studio when I was 15 and I left school to pursue music, that was the beginning of my journey to pursuing music.
The journey did not begin well, I had to learn about the difficult side of the music industry. I went through some experiences which then led to me not making music for a long time. After about 5-6 years, I began to make music again and started to make music videos. I then began working as a freelancer and this is where I started to work with Alien Amp Records. Working with Alien Amp Records has been an absolute blessing and such a great, fulfilling opportunity for me as a musician and as a person. When I first heard the very first track I worked on ‘Endless Life’, I was instantly captured by the sound and production. I had no idea that working on one track would have turned into working on 2 amazing albums.
I am inspired by many things. I would say my biggest musical inspiration is Lady Gaga. I remember when I was in high school and I was not having the greatest time there. Music was already in life quite heavily, but I was still trying to conform and fit in, to feel like I belonged somewhere. However, when I heard Lady Gaga’s ‘Just Dance’, I fell in love with the synthesizers, the vocal production, her look, and her fearless ability to be different, not conforming. So then, I would sing her songs and learn her dance routines! That was my life for many years. I could not sing, nor produce, at this point but listening to her music incessantly made me persevere and I wanted to make music.
I was just absolutely inspired by her all the time. I am also inspired by my own trauma and life events! It may sound strange, but if it wasn’t for my life experiences, I wouldn’t be able to outlet or create as I have. Some of my most passionate and creative work has come from my life experiences. I don’t believe that bad experiences needed to happen, but I am grateful for the ability to translate any hardship and pain into something creative. The last couple of songs I’ve worked on with Alien Amp Records have been a real example of this and again, I’m really thankful to be able to outlet and be creatively free as an artist to write lyrics and sing on such great music produced by the label.
My future goals include continuing making music and working with Alien Amp Records. I have learnt so much and grown so much as a musician over the last year, with freelancing and working with other musicians. Especially while working with the label. I would like to be more open about other things in my life rather than just music. I feel that I’ve been very private about my personal life in terms of physical and mental health struggles, but I feel that telling your story is an important thing. If someone can hear my story, or anybody else’s story, and gain some inspiration or confidence from it, which is a real beautiful thing. I feel that talking and communicating with one another is crucial and that we can raise awareness and talk about things that need to be talked about. That is my future goal, to really be open and raise awareness for both physical and mental health related topics.